My Time Is Precious

Last Sunday afternoon, I was at a very bad mood. I ministered in morning and afternoon service at my church. The two services were held at different places, so I thought of having one-hour rest or even took a nap before I left for the second service.

However the traffic was unexpectedly bad that afternoon. My car could only move at 5 km/hour. I just watched the clock in my dashboard, praying it would slow down. But no, it kept ticking and there went another 5 minutes of my one hour nap. I was very upset and unashamedly I complained to God why this traffic jam happened at this hour, didn't I deserve my one hour rest at home??

Well finally I passed the cause of the traffic. A big trailer was stuck at the middle of the opposite road, so it affected the cards from my road side who wanted to turn around. Poor drivers at the opposite road, they would not go anywhere for at least another one hour. And..right away I thanked God that my car still could move and actually the traffic was smooth afterwards. At the end I only lost 15 minutes of my rest time.

The Holy Spirit asked me, " Is your one hour rest so precious for you that you complained to me like you just did?" I repented, I considered my one hour rest is so precious for me, while I often neglected the time that is so precious for Him...my quiet time with Him, my spending time with people He wants me to touch, my prayers for people He has put in my heart.

My time is so precious for Him. There is no "Undo" and "Redo" button. Everything I do has to add value, either in my relationship with God, my relationship with my family, friends, my job, my knowledge, talents, ministry, etc.

Lord, I would not take for granted whatever precious in Your sight that You have given to me..

Had I Known

Dear Friend,

Had I known that you hide something inside your cheerfulness,
I would invite you to have dinner, and perhaps you would tell me some of your problems

Had I been more sensitive that you are facing difficult situation
I would call you and pray for you over the phone, and perhaps you would be stronger inside

Had I not too busy thinking of my own problems and circumstances
I would notice that there were something in you that cries out for attention, and perhaps you will feel that you were not all alone

Had I known that things have become too rough for you
I would try my best to find solution that may lighten your burdens, and perhaps I would still find you by my side now

Friend,
It is never too late to start again
Our God is God of second change
It is your love to God that inspires me to know God deeper each day
It is my mistake to let life routine draw us apart

Now I pray for you each time I remember of you
God loves you more than anything else in the whole universe
You may see your problems as gigantic wall
But for Him, it's just a speck of dust

I pray that you find Him wherever you are
You are His and nothing could ever change that
I believe by faith that we gonna meet again
By that time I hope you would have forgiven me
for not being there during your hardest time...


Jakarta, 16 November 2009