I Hear God Says

Hearing what God says to us human is truly a privilege.The supernatural being, the creator of the universe, the Alpha and Omega, the Beginning and the End, and the unseen personality talking to us human. The unseen characteristic makes the conversation between God and human a private matter. I have never known anybody who has broadcast a recorded conversation between him or her with God, so other people could then verify if they truly hear from God.

We could hear so many voices in our head. I  could hear at least two voices at subsequent time. And until today I had troubles differentiating whether it's my own inner voice talking to each other or the Almighty voice talking to me.

Luckily I have never heard God's voice telling me to do things not according to His Words. At the end of last year my emotion was unstable. I felt lonely, detached from friends at work and not in the mood of sharing anything to my few close friends. I happened to know that my previous group at work (some of them had resigned) had Christmas dinner together without me. I know it was only a simple matter, but at that time I felt it was such a big deal for me, because I enjoy talking with them and as far as I remembered I have no problem with them. I felt rejected and questioning myself. What was wrong with me that my favorite friends didn't want to hang out with me. I am asking God that question and was so sad.

That time I heard Him saying,"You should just be happy for them. I always love you no matter what."
Then slowly my insecurity start waning. Now it's okay with me, my self worth does not depend on other people's reception to me.

There are many other small occasion when I have a very good hunch that it was God's voice talking to me, telling me to be more patient, to give certain amount to the church, reminding me that my best investment was not in buying gold but in giving to my mom.

Hearing God's voice always give a peace mark in my heart, a warm feeling that makes me smile. Knowing it is my Father who loves me enough to speak to me.

Spending so many years at church, I always felt confused when some person who seemed so close to God could hear totally two opposite things. Sometimes I thought maybe they served different God, because God, You could not contradict yourselves right? I can never know any satisfactory answers. Anyway it was never be my business, who am I to judge?

Just like when Peter asking Jesus what would happen to John. And Jesus answered," If I want him to live until I come again, what's that to you? You-follow me."

My only concern is what I personally hear from God. I pray that I will always be able to differentiate the voice of my heart with the voice of my God. His voice is not loud. I could never be able to hear His voice in the midst of my tantrum and anger. Only after I calmed myself, His voice started to comfort me, giving new perspective in seeing things.

Continue speaking to me God. And please speak louder if my ear is too thick to hear Your voice.